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36 Weeks: What I Know Now
- I am having sheer panic attacks knowing that our baby is coming in such a short amount of time. I think that fact that it's October now just made everything really real. And don't get me wrong, I am so happy and excited.... but I want to feel ready. And right now I don't feel ready.
- I am not sleeping at all. If it's not the heartburn, its because I have to pee. If it's not because I have to pee, it's because my hips are throbbing and I need to change sides. If it's not my hips, than it's my back. And if it's not my back, it's because rowan wakes up. Blah blah... and if it's not one of those 100 reasons that any (very) pregnant girl can relate too, than it's just because I can't shut my brain off. It's just REALLY hard to sleep these days!
- I am down to my one-week appointments now. Crazy! So far I've gained 24 lbs. I'm pretty much exactly where I was with Rowan.
- My belly is gettin biiiiiiiiiiiig. I feel like baby girl has totally popped these last two weeks. I catch all my crumbs and spills on my belly these days.
- This may be TMI, but I look, walk, and especially feel like someone has kicked me over and over in the crotch. I am SO incredibly sore down there. ouch.
- Baby girl's moves are not to sweet and little anymore. They are getting fewer, just because she has so little room to move around now, but they are hard!
- Rowan talks about the baby all the time now, and it's really sweet. Part of my anxiety of doing this all again was because now I have a toddler who needs my attention as well as a newborn. But the way rowan talks about helping "baby gurl" with her woobie, and her passie... just makes me excited for their future as sisters.
- I am not really swollen at all anywhere, I feel pretty lucky. and no stretchmarks.... yet.
- I am finally able to cross things off my "to-do" list lately, and it's helping ease the anxiety. I think I'm way more freakishly "nesting" than I did with rowan. I just want everything to be clean, and I especially want everything to be organized so that my only worry is for my two little girls.
- I have been crying alot over everything lately. dang hormones. and poor jord.
- Did I mention how bad my back has been hurting? ugh.
- Still at the same place with names. I think, I THINK, we have it narrowed down to two names. and I bounce between both daily.
- I think that I have mentioned before.. but I became overly obsessed with buying clothes for this baby girl. Mostly because her and Rowan are being born in opposite seasons, so I pretty much had to start from scratch. But also because I feel like my style has changed alot since Rowan was born. But I literally go in her room, and look at her outfits i've bought, over and over again! It's rediculous. But they're so cute and tiny!!
