april 1, 2012
my sweet little rowan girl,
one year old... how in the world did this day come so fast? part of me feels like you have been one for awhile, because i feel like your personality is way beyond 12 months old. but the other half of me is in shock that my baby came to be one year old so quickly. i remember sitting in that hospital bed, one year ago from right now wondering how i could have been so blessed to have such a beautiful and perfect baby. and i can honestly say little miss, that my feelings haven't changed one bit. you are the most beautiful little girl and seriously, the most perfect baby. you are every mothers dream-of-a-child, and have been from the very beginning.
a couple nights ago i walked by your bedroom. you had been asleep for a couple hours, but the second i passed your door i just missed you. so i quietly walked in and watched you sleep for a minute, but then i wanted to hold you. (forget the golden rule of never wake a sleeping baby). i picked you up and you moved for a split second, but immediately fell asleep on my chest as i walked over to our rocking chair and just rocked. i just couldn't help but cry, anticipating your first birthday, of all that we have been through the last year. you have changed your daddy's and my life completely. it was impossible to know that love i had in my heart before you came into our lives. your smile lights up an entire room and grabs everyone's attention. you have about a million and a half different faces that you make, and can show all of them in about 2 minutes. you are so friendly with everyone around you, unless someone has crossed you- then you definitely let them know about it. ;) you have many tricks (and learning to crawl 2 days before your first birthday was the best one.) you are incredibly entertaining and love to have the attention on you. and i, like a true mother, feel like you are the smartest baby around. one of my favorite and most rewarding things to experience as a mother is to watch you learn [i cried the first time you did sign language back to me]. and i just feel so blessed to be able to be in such a position that i get to watch you learn and progress. i love to hear you giggle, i love to see your face light up when you see me in the morning, i love when you cry on my shoulder when you get hurt, i love to see you start rockin your body when you hear a beat, i love to see your face when your daddy walks in the door, i love to see you smile at people in a store, i love to hear you talk jibberish all day long- and you know exactly what your'e saying, i love to see you cuddle your blankets, i love to see you bark at dogs, oh the list could go on and on.
i just want you to know my baby love, always, but especially on your first birthday, how much you are loved. you have such a wonderful life ahead of you and you are loved and supported by so many people. my heart aches for the first time you will scrape your knee, or get your feelings hurt. but i want you to know that your daddy and i are always here for you, and will always love you. I also want you to always know how much your Heavenly Father loves you. Never forget who you are, Rowan. Never. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for sending you to us. I'm the luckiest momma in the whole world! You are the light of my life baby girl, and that will never change.
Love you forever and ever. happy first (and golden!) birthday sweet little bug,
love, momma.
12 month stats:
weight: 18.7 lbs (28%)
height: ? (85%)
head: ? (55%)
okay... and i know im all sorts of emotional today, but i totally bawled reading my little sisters letter to rowan. i am so grateful for such a loving a supportive family. rowan is a pretty lucky girl..
look how my little babe has grown!
zzzzzz <------------ rowan just typed that. apparently she had something to say. ;)
